If you're anything like me, you're a creative person who enjoys making stuff. If you're anything like me, sometimes the world clearly enjoys fucking with you (and everyone else) through pandemics, wars, mental illness and plain old bad luck. Because of that, creativity and momentum can sometimes be lost. We drop things. Motivation goes away.... Continue Reading →
How do we fix the games industry?
In my 22 years as a game developer, I haven't managed to make much headway in the industry at large. I'm still barely beyond senior, I've seen countless very competent and skilled women leave the industry, I've barely met a Black, Latino, Asian, indigenous, mixed race, trans or non-binary person and most companies still consist... Continue Reading →
Response and Responsibility
It is a truth universally acknowledged that taking responsibility for one’s actions is something one should do, but when it comes down to it, it rarely happens. This is because it is really difficult to be a good person. And in my mind, being a good person means taking responsibility. We were discussing this at... Continue Reading →
Grief
I've been thinking a lot about grief and death lately. The aspect of sorrow and how it can be entirely paralysing, but also an agent of change and action. I have been at a standstill, in a holding pattern, for years. In part, it was related to the fact that I have an issue with... Continue Reading →
Hello, I’m a problem
You probably shouldn’t read this post. I probably shouldn’t write this post, but I’m tired and sad and loss hangs heavy over my shoulders. About ten or eleven years ago, my manager told me “I have a problem. I have a designer on my team that isn’t respected.” That designer was me. I was the... Continue Reading →
We all need heroes
I lost one of mine on the 19th of April this year. But the statement is still true. In order for me to be the person I am right this minute, I have needed other people to help me be strong and to stand up for what I believe in. Tove has been a major... Continue Reading →