So I'm replaying Mass Effect 3. I do that whenever I'm stressed out and when I feel particularly vulnerable. There's nothing more comforting than revisiting the Normandy. I had forgotten about this moment, but it's always hilarious to me. Joker really does have a big mouth, and damn Mass Effect is packed with action. Never... Continue Reading →
Ugh, Emotions: Part IV
CW: harassment, gaslighting, suicidal thoughts By necessity and signed paperwork, I’m keeping it vague. It's also in the past. I'm posting it because I have this idea that we need to show that negative behaviour doesn't have to be sexual. I also want to point out that my experiences may well have been a one... Continue Reading →
Ugh, Emotions: Part III
This post is a bit of an interlude where I talk about the difficulties marginalised groups have in getting hired, it’s also about being a victim, but refusing to be victimised. And it’s a "glorious" CV because I just know that some of you readers have started wondering if I’m really that good at my... Continue Reading →
Ugh, Emotions: Part II
CW: Harassment, sexism, sexual harassment In 2000 I wrote my thesis at a mobile games company. It was titled User Interfaces for Role-playing on a Mobile Platform. I still have it somewhere. It’s 150 pages long and is probably quite useless by now, considering that mobile interfaces have changed quite a bit since I wrote... Continue Reading →
Ugh, Emotions: Part I
CW: Harassment, exclusion. This is a difficult set of posts for me to write, because they admit to my own complicity in a culture I desperately want to change. To understand gaming, the games industry and the gaming culture it’s necessary to understand some of the backstory of the nerd culture. We’ve been considered underdogs... Continue Reading →
Adjutants
Abject 1. (of something bad) experienced or present to the maximum degree. In Mass Effect 3: Omega, there's an enemy that tries very hard to live up to the previous success of the Banshee, but the Adjutant doesn't quite make it. The Adjutant is introduced in a similar manner to the Banshee. Darkness, crashing sounds... Continue Reading →